Reassurance.

It is a motivation to keep striving when things become unbearable and all paths are crossed, covered in dark fog. It is a protection, but also a knowledge that someone cares. For some it comes naturally- what to do, what to say, how to say it, how to do it, the distance needed to keep that relationship sanctified. But no matter what, the way it’s done isn’t as important as who does it.

There are some people who thrive off reassurance. It’s not dependency. Usually those who look for that reassurance are more independent than dependent. A small touch, a few words, something as simple as an ‘I care’. It makes your heart jump a little because you realize as terrible as things may seem, there has to be something someone can say to make you feel better. And that ‘I care’? Although it may not be what you need, your heart jumps because it’s close. Every word matters.

“You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away”

You see someone struggling and you just fall apart. You think and realize there must be something, something, you can do to help him or her. This is even harder if the person is close to you. The last thing you want to imagine is losing someone you truly love. But when that person is in such a rut where he or she can’t even remember the simplest reasons of importance and meaning, let alone what happened less than a day ago, you realize you can only say and do so much. We as people are not armed to take control of such drastic measures.

“Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I just want you to know”

There has to be a reason for why we act the way we do. There has to be a reason for the need of reassurance, even with the smallest of things. Maybe it’s because growing up, some of us didn’t get enough of it. To others, it may be because it was pushed onto us with no consent. Either way, now it’s our turn. It’s our place to be open to those who need it and reassure them things are in their right place, only it’s them who are off track.

“That if you fall,
stumble downI'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in youI'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you”

To not give up on the person is most important. Giving up takes away everything, for both you and the person being overtaken with everything. And Strength? Strength I understand with great clarity. Sometimes, strength is hiding everything behind a smile. Sometimes it’s breaking out and screaming. Sometimes it’s pushing away people and habits to go for things on your own. Any which way, everyone has their own form of strength deep inside. As for faith, just think about it tied in with reassurance. Prayers, intentions, both said and silent, and that overbearing trust and love in God to make things right. THAT is faith. THAT is reassurance.

If only one thing, know there is someone waiting, wanting to hold you when you cry, comfort you when your upset, break you free when you’re encompassed in chains. Everyone has their low points. Some have lower points than others. Some are to the lowest of the low, darkest of the dark.

But reassurance changes everything- outlook, feelings, inclines- even if you can’t see it now.

Reasons.

We have a reason for being here. Sometimes, it’s unclear; usually it’s unclear. But nonetheless, it’s a reason. Oftentimes, we lose that goal. We lose the place we need to reach to and get caught up in all the little things. Those little things take away the big picture, the big picture being all the positive things bringing you to where you need to be; bringing you to where you can finally figure out the meaning for being placed on this… place.

Things are going to push themselves at you. They’re going to push you to your limits, break you down, tear you apart to the lowest of the low. And as easy as giving up seems, in the end it’ll hurt you more than if you didn’t give up. To give up is to let go, to let go of everything you once stood for, everything you’ve believed in, everything you’ve fought for, everything you’ve cried over.
Little things rip you to shreds. And you can easily get tied up into the small things and lose focus of getting to where you need to be; the top of the mountain, the finish line, the end of the page.
Every struggle and every chance is a risk. I know that, you know that. We may not think so at the moment, but every single thing we do is impacting us and our life, our future. We are forming our future RIGHT NOW. We’re discovering our reason to be here. Actually, we’re creating our reason. Nothing is set in stone like religion says. Religion may say different, but logic says there is no way to determine our every action, motive, and thought before it happens.

Our reason is now. Our reason is here. Our reason is whatever we want it to be. In order to quit focusing on every negative that is thrown our way, our thought process needs a drastic change. Every second counts. Look at a clock and watch the second hand tick away, the numbers pass by. Each time it moves a little is a little piece of your life gone. It’s a second passed in which you could have done something. It’s a second gone away, a second…

Albert Einstein once said, “We can’t solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them.”

He was right. And that scares me. But nevertheless, it’s all true. Nothing matters more than the thought process needed to build yourself up and get to where you need to be. Quit slacking, quit lying, quit giving up, quit wasting time. Get up and climb towards something impacting. Take in the moments and find your reason. MAKE your reason. Push through, be strong and get through every battle that comes across your path. Make an oath to never be where you are at now. Find your reason, make your reason. Let go of everything else.

Move on with your problems. Try your hardest, get through everything. Just never, ever give up again. You can’t. I can’t.

Illusions.

Illusions on the wall make you unsure. You see something that you would not normally think of. Something comes up and scares you, pushes you to your limits, and tears you down. You see the same image over and over; hear the same words again and again.

Then you take a step back and realize just what it is. It isn’t just some aspect of your mind. It’s a message. It’s a message telling you who you really are and who you will always be. Face it, change never happens. No matter what, you always fall back into everything you once despised. No recovery, it’s always going to be a part of you. And if there was one positive piece of an illusion, it would be the realization of things you can’t get rid of.

Illusions happen. You are who you are. No one, nothing can change that.